A few weeks ago I hired a private investigator to find my dad for me. He found him relatively soon and made contact. My dad has not responded to him about me wanting a relationship with him. It breaks my heart but gives me relief at the same time. I guess I’m just confused as to why he wouldn’t want anything to do with me but meh. at least I wont day saying i didn’t try. However, this is kind of frustrating for me. I am the only one in my family that has these weird health issues and it would be nice to know some medical history from him. Come the hell on man, at least give me that. I’m just frustrated that I can’t at least get that out of him. I’m not asking for much but for real. If I was some sort of evil I could totally get back pay child support from him. but i dont want anything out of him. Just his friendship. grrrr. If I didn’t start bartending again I would totally delete all social media. I kept a lot of it still active incase he ever tried to find me.
Another cool thing thats going on is I might be starting a new business soon. I miss LIFE a lot but I dont know if i can live that lifestyle again. I miss the people just not the work. However, this new opportunity is looking pretty promising. I guess we will find out. 🙂